Thoughts out of season [The Ego].

When we are capable of just being the way we are where we are in the moment we see that the problem of what to do about this vanishes just like the question. We are able to be with whatever is here right now.

This doesn’t mean that this present experience will be enjoyable, but it means that we will not make our pain worse by trying to escape it.

When we accept what is here right now, this doesn’t mean that it will always be pretty but at least we will be present with it. Many times our pain is like that of a small child. It just wants to be held and listened too and when we do this with whatever experience is going on right now we allow it to be. And by allowing it to be and easing the pain but not writhing to get out of it we can accept it and ourselves, just like the wave.

We are no different than the waves and the trees, we (in any state) are an expression of the cosmos and we realise that we are not just part of the universe but that the universe is part of us.

Anxiety is part of human existence but it often transforms into worry among many modern day people. The issue with worry is that it focuses on the future, worry presupposes such a knowledge of the situation that it is a form of hubris. The concept behind worry is that something will happen to me and my self (my ego) will be damaged. 

The ego is a common aspect of the modern man, more so than ever before. The ego is a construction; it is our idea of who we should be and whom we believe we are. Therefore whenever there is a threat to the ego in the future it creates worry.

The antidote to worry is the realization that there is no one there to worry about. The idea that the social construction of who we are is just that; a construction. The fear that something bad will happen to “me” disappears when we realize there is no me. 

The me that exists in our head is a delusion, a delusion created by our desires and habits. When this me is threatened we enter a fight or flight response as we see this as an opposition to our being. We grow aggressive and combative or scared and shy. These responses are human, but if we begin to recognize that the ego is a social construction we can adjust these responses.

Something bad will happen to ME. Or I can’t handle this. This is too much for ME. What will happen to ME. These questions are all centered around preservation of our being and as we see above this desire for preservation or what is or the confirmation of what will be is completely illogical. There is no way to preserve anything in the long run. We all die and most of us undergo many unkind changes and challenges to ourselves before that. The desire for permanence and the fear of lack cause us to worry about our future.

But once we realise who we actually are a representation of the entire universe we see that whatever harm may come the real me is still alive and well even after the death of this body. If we know how to manage our thoughts and our emotions, our body and our energy, what does it matter if we walk into hell; hell will be an interesting place to go. 

So how do we combat worry? Again this question is illogical, because there is no I to combat the worry. We presuppose that something bad will happen to us, which is a delusion in itself, it is a sort of negative clairvoyance that provokes a fear response when 90% of the time the event doesn’t actually happen. And this presupposition stands as a threat to the concept of our being. These questions of what will happen to me to the I, make us again separate from the tangible moving river that life is. 

So when we realize that all worry arises from a threat to the security of our ego and that this ego is doomed to die at some point in our existence (usually towards the end for most of us) no matter what technique we take to destroy the worry it simply reinforces our ego. The true step to get rid of worry is that we must realize that we can’t lose ourselves no matter what, because our true selves are something far greater, something much larger than this.